19 going on 20
For some reason there seems to be hype about 20 weeks so that I am anxiously awaiting it’s arrival next week. We’ll get to see the twins on a very nice and detailed ultrasound hopefully they will both cooperate in positioning so that we can see their gender. The past two days have been so neat being able to feel regular pushes from inside. Yes, I have definitely been feeling this for several weeks but never as often so I always wondered if it was just gas. Well once it starts to be this regular you know for certain that it’s not gas nor has it been all this time. It is such a big moment in the pregnancy, when you feel them moving around. It adds a sense of reality at a time when it’s easy to forget sometimes that life is about to change completely in four months. This is a very strange phase of the pregnancy. Moments when I get busy at work and forget what is happening inside. Other times when I bend over to pick something up and it’s oh so obvious that things are changing inside such that I have to change outside. And then there it is… that little kick about an inch below and a half inch to the right of my belly button. Yes, I just felt it again while writing this. Moments when you have to hold back tears of pure joy. This process is amazing and while I have always held it in awe and with great respect, as you can imagine it has all new meaning now. I’ll say it again, pure joy.
I’ve become a much calmer person. I am less worried about cleaning things up, less worried about a mess or being on time. I seem to have taken a “chill pill” and I really hope this newly found calm settles in for good because I know it’s going to be needed once the twins arrive. While I can not remember a word during conversation that I had just used two sentances ago, I can remember songs, games, things that are from childhood. I am enjoying being in the kitchen and baking favorite cookies. (By the way, Mom, how do I make no-bake cookies so that they don’t stay all chewy? What did I do wrong that it took them two days to harden up?)
I have all the baby clothes, blankets and stuffed toys layed out to look out and touch. These are my moments that help bring reality while in this middle phase of the pregnancy. There will be two little people to wear those sweet hats this Christmas.
I did not win the lamp on ebay, another lady swooped in with a higher bid. She bought it for a dollar more then the original owner paid for it brand new. I had thought about raising my bid but I just couldn’t bring myself to pay more for an item then when it cost in the store. But I found another person with the same lamp up for auction, will I stick with my original ethics about it or get caught up in bunny ebay mania? Let me get back to you on that in the next week.
Today the quilt and one of the bumpers arrived in the mail. I love them and am so completely happy to have found this set. As hot an item as they are on ebay you’d think Pottery Barn would bring them back to the stores. Obviously unisex bunnies ARE popular in the nursery but the corporations just didn’t get the memo. Although I don’t think I would have paid the original price ($69 for the bumper!!) nor would I have registered and asked a friend to, that’s just way too much money. So ebay has been my companion in this and I am thankful for all the women who took such good care of their $69 bumpers so that someone cheap like me could get one for $15 a few years later.
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